chloe_marisa

burning the candle at both ends

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 22:53:59 GMT

i am still at uni, i actually cannot believe i am surviving. i wish i would read more. i wish i attended all my lectures. i wish i understood everything my tutor talks about in tutorials. i wish i liked waking up early in the morning to get on a train to get to uni. i wish i would make more of an effort with uni in general. i wish i was studying something i actually enjoyed. i wish...

night out recently have been very very eventful. from fights in abc, to lucy and i going crazy one random thursday night , wearing just pants in octo and bryan and i's addiction to goldshlagger becoming stronger each night out. i should maybe learn to stop? or learn to shut my mouth and think of what i am actually saying to strangers who actually could not care less about anything i blab on about. or i should learn that drunkness is not attractive ( like my mum always tells me ), and that i should not drink pints of cider and blackcurrent because i am wee and it does look ridiculous.

however i am 19...and mistakes are there to be made. yes, i have made countless mistakes, but we learn from them...right? atleast my life is not as crazy and eventful as bloody 'Skins' episodes! i'd love to be in skins. i'd love to act for a living. i'd also love to pick the music for tv shows. the music in episodes of greys anatomy and one tree hill actually make the episodes for me. yes i do cry and cry and cry but the pieces of music that are chosen for the specific scene are just so fitting to whats happening. i remember jimmy eat worlds, 'hear you me' being played when jake left in one tree hill. i actually couldnt stop crying. then bon ivers, 'the wolves'' being playing in greys anatomy. wouldnt that just be so amazing to sit and watch these tv shows and choose which song would fit. music is everything...

frightened rabbit in a weeks time. i actually cannot wait. garry and i have been waiting since bloody december to see them live. it should be a night to remember. i plan on staying away from the cider...far away.

bell x1 have been added to the benicassim line up...that is going to be amazing :) also Bestival this year looks like its going to be amazing, 'fleet foxes, frightened rabbit and mgmt....oh my!!

i want summer to be here...x

This is me

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 17:19:21 GMT

I have fell in love with Gavin & Stacey. I am now watching the second season for the 3rd time. It's just perfect. The main theme song for it is by Stephen Fretwell. I went to see him about a year ago in the Classic Grand in Glasgow. Such a nice, chilled out gig. I have actually been to quite a few gigs. I love live music. If I had the money I'd go to atleast one gig a week.

I remember being younger and going to see Boyzone and it being one of the best times ever. Im sure I went to see them about three times! My cousin Cara still has the ticket from our first ever concert when we went to see them. Its crazy, these days to go see Boyzone its about £50. This ticket from about maybe 12 years ago was £14.50!! Haha, oh Boyzone, how I loved/ still love a wee bit of the wonderful Stephen Gatley.

In my time I have seen;

Boyzone about 3 times.
Westlife ( aha! ) about 3 times
Dido with Louise McLean for Free!!
Pop Idol...supporting the McManus!
Busted
Mcfly about 4 times...( completely obsessed with them )
Kelly Clarkson

then i realised what music really was all about and since then I have seen...

Alexisonfire a couple of times
Angus & Julia Stone in 'The Beat Club' & 'The Oran Mor'
Damien Rice
Willie Mason
Stephen Fretwell
Jo Mango
Jose Gonzalez
The Fray
Nada Surf
Dallas Green; 'City & Colour'
Lifehouse
Snow Patrol
Coldplay
Seth Lakeman

and I think a few more but I cannot remember...

So far this year I have-
Chris Brown
James Morrison ( with the mumma- she loves him )
Frightened Rabbit
Coldplay & Jay-Z

love love love.xxx

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Mon, 12 Jan 2009 14:30:01 GMT

Angels live in libraries and they can read your mind...

I watched City of Angels the other night. The story was tragically beautiful and it really made me think. If I was an angel I would have made the same decision Seth did. The music in the film was so perfect and I cannot believe I had not seen this movie until now.

decisions, decisions, decisions...I wish I found it easier to make them.

Day 12 of no chocolate; Im still here :)x

2009

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 17:22:27 GMT

So...new start; hello 2009.

2008 was crazy. The start of the year began with someone new in my life. He was lovely and still is but that is no longer happening which is obviously hard but I am looking at 2009 as a new start. Uni last year was not fun. I spent days crying over how much I hate it however this year, or semester I am trying to get through it. The biggest thing that happened to me last year was my life changing trip to America. Mum always asks how America changed me and I can never give her an answer but I just know it has. I met so many lovely people and the experiences were amazing. New York City has to be visited again. Boston was so beautiful. North Carolina is where my second family live. Mississippi is where I laughed every second of every day. Back home at the start was hard. I knew that it was not going to be the same but I thought I could work at it. Uni was horrid and I felt a distance with my friends. 3 months is a long time and I could tell that during those 3 months at home everyone else had being getting on with things also. I had to slot my way back in. Things now back home are pretty amazing and from October to December, I did have the best time ever and I was so thankful to be back. Turning 19 was not as exciting as 18. Sometimes I wish I was 18 again. Actually I wish I was 16 again. Things were so much simpler then :) Coldplay on the 6th of December was actually one of the best nights ever. Eventhough it was in the S.E.C.C, they were still amazing and the show was unbelievable too. I ended 2008 quite nicely.

This year is about...well I actually do not know what this year is about. I just know that I do plan on heading back to America for Brant Lake Camp 2009, however passing 2nd year at uni is the 1st step. I plan on saving money this year instead of throwing it away on numerous vodka canberries, goldshlagger shots, taxis from Glasgow to Wishaw, lunches, not needed shoes or clothes and everything else I waste money on. Instead I will TRY and read books and just stay in and watch movies. Ha! I wonder how long that will last! I am going to try though! ALSO, I have not ate chocolate this year! Yes, I know its only been 6 days but for me that is a huge deal since I do love chocolate so so so much!

So...to all who shared 2008 with me, Thank you.
Lets see what 2009 brings us, eh?

December

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 22:45:34 GMT

Camp Reunion- 17th December...Bamboo madness :/

I am loving the build up to Christmas even though right now I am pretty ill from having way too much fun at the camp reunion. 19 in a few days. It is not as exciting as 18 though but I still love my birthday.

I am so happy that uni has finished for the year...free for a few weeks!!

Jacob of Long Island, New York and Laura Jane Bridgewater of Newcastle will be joining the McGinness family for New Year celebrations...what have they let themselves in for and as someone would say...all will be revealed :)x

x

No 12

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 17:55:55 GMT

Mittens
Tea
George Square
19
Family
Coldplay
Ear Muffs
Snow
Christmas Movies
Nights in
Xfactor Final
Milkshakes

I love december...

x

Remember...

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 20:08:02 GMT

...when Nurse Karina got really drunk in Mega Bar on Christmas night?

...when Soph was small and Paul was a model?

...everytime with Pamyjay?

...that night at Thomas'??

...how much I concentrate on the roads?

...when I made him the best birthday cake ever?

...that Jamie will always be there even when he is famous.

...when I wore ribbons around my head at school

...that he is always the coolest...

...when I could fit in that dress?

...that time in Rome?

...that time in the Palace?

...St.Aidans Primay School always.

...High School Days.

...Sophies band in St.Andrews?

...the School Show?

...when I had short hair?

...those red glasses :)

remember...x

Morning Subway Reading

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 21:08:01 GMT

Capricorn December 22 - January 20

Think Bonfire Night safety. Never return to a lit firework. If you revisit an emotional issue you ignited the other day, you’ll live to regret it. Try to move on and give that particular problem some breathing space.

That horoscope woke me up on the 8.30am subway to uni...

Made me think all day...hmmmm

Images

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 22:31:00 GMT

This is what I wake up to every morning...can you find youself?

I am currently sorting out pictures from my summer to make a new one to put up on another wall in my room...x

11th

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 14:49:09 GMT

''No point of holding onto something that is no longer there...''

Hi November, Lets see what happens here.x

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Mon, 27 Oct 2008 18:37:58 GMT

Sleeping Sickness

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 21:03:45 GMT

I hated Geography at School but somehow I am doing a degree in the subject at university.
I am allergic to Chlorine but I still continue to go swimming every other day.
I love cookie dough ice cream but if I ate it I would die.
Just some thoughts I had...

October; busy month!

I have Cara 18th party this Saturday coming. She has actually been planning this for two years. I actually cannot wait! Her speech will top mine I am sure! Barry is moving back home this month aswell. He is back to work in Glasgow which makes me very very happy. I think he has been living in England for 2 years now and I am glad that time is up, however back to 4 children in the house is not going to be fun times all the time! Hopefully Barry, Paul and I will move out when we can. I wish I had the money to do it now but I am still jobless...

Was out on Saturday night for the 1st proper night out since I have been home. ABC was the dancing spot and I had the best night. Everytime I turned my head I met someone else. It was amazing and Bryan and I will be entering either Xfactor or Strictly Come Dancing next year since out dance moves are better than anyone else....ever!!!

Vodka Slush Puppies were missed when I was away...£1.50 aswell...its like a dream in a glass :]x

Wedding

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 09:42:30 GMT

Gary and Marias wedding was amazing! The whole night made me realise what I was missing when I was away. This weekend was also my parents 25th wedding anniversary which was lovely. We had a big family & friend gathering in the house which are always my favourite times because of the ridiculous stories you hear and all the general chat.

Being back at uni is not the best but hopefully it wont get any worse. Geography sends me to sleep everyday... :/

Looking at the positives; I have Laura Janes 21st this weekend which I am very very very excited about and also my family ( all 26 of us ) have booked a weekend away for next year for my grandmama 80th birthday. All of us in this old manor for the weekend. We have all suggested paintball guns for our Christmas. That will be a weekend to remember!.x

times like these;

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 23:10:59 GMT

In the car in Mississippi. Joe Love driving, Laura Jane in the back and me sitting up front. Windows down. Hair blowing in the wind and this song playing so loudly. Me singing at the top of my lungs and saying, ''This is my happy time...I am happy...I love this''.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQnhVgPr-NU

I miss it...I miss it all.x

Back Home

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 20:15:34 GMT

Camp ended...I cried like a baby! 2 months I spent there. With the same people practically 24/7. When they left I felt like I had just had a huge part of myself taken away. Brant Lake Camp was actually the time of my life and I really hope to go back next year.
The end of camp ws crazy! We had Green and Gray which was thee most intense 4 days ever and I loved every minute of it. Even though Green won, I loved being part of the Gray Team and will forever be a Gray!!! Lazy Morning was rather enjoyable. Amazing breakfast and watched some movies with the kids. The last Sophmore campfire took place in the junior clubhouse due to the bad weather but it was still so lovely. When Dylan was talking about the whole summer I had to hold back my tears...
The last week was the most emotional week. Everything went so fast and before I knew it, it was time to leave and go ahead with my travels.

Brant Lake 2008 - Time of my life...

Travels with the lovely Laura Jane Bridgewater.
Started off in Ny City with everyone from camp then train to Boston accompanied with the charming Rohan. Boston was beautiful. I could not get over how clean it was and I loved everywhere we visited. Whale watching was interesting then we headed to Harvard. The following day we went to Quinsy Market and Fennway Park. The Fennway Park tour was a waste of $12. They basially sat us down in three different places then chucked us out.

Next Stop- North Carolina to see the McKissock Family. We had a lovely weekend! 'The Cheesecake factory' was out 1st stop and I do not think I have ever ate so much. We all felt abit sick afterwards but it was so worth it. Saturday we spent the day getting ready for our BBQ we had planned for the night. It was amazing and afterwards we had a game of Knockout in the dark. We travelled about 2 hours the next day to one of the most beautiful beaches I have ever seen in my life. The waves were huge and Laura, Dean, Cole and I enjoyed playing in them all day. I also had some time to top up my tan! Leaving North Carolina was hard. I miss the Mckissocks everyday.

Mississippi Baby- My 2nd favourite place in the World ( After Glasgow ) :)!

Last Stop; Long Island with Jacob. A very lovely 5 days with Mr.Weil. Lovely way to end the trip.

So after all of that I walked off the plane at Glasgow Airport on the the 9th of September to see my wonderful family that I had missed alot. Summer 2008 was my favourite ever. I hope on doing pretty much the same next year. For anyone who is interested in working at a summer camp next year I would tell you all that it is a challenging but completely amazing experience. I am so happy I made the desision to do it last year.

Back to University now. 2nd year which is kind of scary but I am so up for it this year because I know I need to do well if I want to have an awesome Summer again next year.

Green & Gray

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 02:05:57 GMT

Camp is over in six days...I cannot believe it.
Where has these 2 months went? I do not want to leave everyone behind but at the same time I miss Sophies banters and all the rest of the things at home but I do not think I am ready to leave the people here. Being with the same people everyday, seven days a week for two months then just not being with them atall makes me so upset. It has not sunk in yet that soon, I will be thousands of miles away from these people. Camp is crazy, full of drama, tears and stress but I would not change anything that has happened atall. I am already planning on my trip back next year...x

18

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 19:41:57 GMT

I cannot believe I only have 18 days more left of camp!!! In a way I feel like I just arrived yesterday but at the same time I feel like I have been here forever and I have known everyone all my life. So much has happened recently but I just have not got round to updating this so here I go...

We went out for Brandon and Nikolais 21st birthdays about 2 weeks ago, which has to be one of my favourite nights since I arrived here 7 weeks ago. We started the night in a Suishi Bar which involved numourous Sauki Bomb rounds which resulted in a $400 bar tab. I found the whole 1st part of the night hilarious due to the fact we were in Suishi Yushi for only an hour and a half!!!
Moving on to Simple Simons where Brandon drank more shots than I have ever seen anyone drink in my life. Back at the motel we all crashed out on the beds and woke up to Brandon coming in at 7am.

Us: Where have you been??
Brandon: The Hospital...
Us: WHAT!?!?!?!
Brandon: Yeah, I woke up in an ambulance strapped down to a bed...they told me I had passed out on the street and someone called 911...Ive been sitting in the hospital since about 4am. They wouldnt let me go unless someone would come and get me. None of you would answer your phone, which by the way had to be held up to my ear because I was strapped to a bed, so I had to sit there until the male nurse got off duty and offered to drive me back here.
Us:........
Brandon: Look at my hospital band!...Anyone up for Mcdonalds?

I honestly laughed for a good 2 hours. It is thee best 21st birthday ever and I will always always always remember it forever!!!

I am going to Canada on Thursday since I finish at 6pm and I am off on Friday. So Myself, Tiki, Laura and Brandon are all going on a little roadrip. It only takes 2 and a half hours to get there which is pretty good so I am really looking forward to that :).

Travelling plans for after camp are right now being sorted. Laura and Myself will start our adventure on the 19th of August where we will be taking a train to Boston where I hope to meet up with the beautiful Bryan from back home. After a few days there we are going to ORLANDO with some of the Aussie boys, which I am so extremely excited about! THEN its Mississippi for a whole week to stay with lovely Joe Love for his birthday and visit Tiki and all sorts. After that it is back to NY to visit Jake in Long Island then our last few days will be spent shopping ( with any money I have left ) in New York City. How amazing!!!!!

Fun x12238746238765287645

Driving

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 19:43:51 GMT

I have been here for a month now. Its crazy but I love it.
Tiki from Mississippi now has a Scottish accent and I have been able to keep mine going strong.

Pictures have been posted up onto my myspace profile...more to come as the time goes on.

Paul and Ally watched ''Once''...I knew they would love it.
I hope Soph is surviving...x

Tiredness

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 02:28:09 GMT

I honestly cannot remember the last time I was this tired. I am still having thee most amazing time but oh dear lord I am drained like hell. Getting up at 7.15 everymorning to start work at 7.30 is a nightmare then I do not finish until about 9.30 that night. Tonight is even longer since I am on duty until about 1am. That means I have to sit outside my kids bunk while they sleep since my two other guy counsellors have the night off.

The last two days have been really tough. I was in the lake playing with a few of the boys when they thought they would play fight with me, which didnt really end too well. They held my head under the water for an extra long time, they grabbed places which they do not understand should not be grabbed and in the end my chin was bleeding from one of them smacking me, and their nails cutting my skin. At that moment I could have cried. I was so near tears but, I controlled myself which has been very easy to do here since I have amazing people around me. I have a disgusting scab on my chin now which obviously looks really attractive...

I got to leave camp last night for a couple of hours. It felt so good to be away from the kids and free to do whatever. Dont get me wrong though, I do love the kids here. They are so cute and say hilarious things which I should write down. Last night the wonderful Joe Love took myself, Laura and Brandon out in his car where we ventured to Walmart. To you that may sound like a boring night because its just like going to Asda, but leaving camp and being able to buy fizzy juice and toothpaste was extremely excting. AND I was able to buy bicarbonate of soda which made me actually nearly cry with joy.Then we headed out for pizza which was so good also. I got a slice ( which was about twice the size of my face ) of mushroom pizza and a large orange soda for $3...yummy.

I have been able to convert Joe into a real tea addict. Back in Mississippi where he lives they do not drink tea with milk and the 1st time I had it when he was sitting with me, he couldnt quite understand the whole concept of tea being hot and adding milk to it since where he lives its cold sweet tea. However now he drinks hot tea with milk everyday, the right way. He also knows that tea makes me feel so much better so he makes some everymoring to waken me up.

The whole Scottish accent and phrases\words still seem to amuse people here. At dinner tonight I had about 7 kids shouting at me because I kept calling Jelo, Jelly. To my fellow Scottish people it was jelly I was eating but I was not allowed to call it that since, ''I AM IN AMERICA'', which they kids continued to remind me.

I think tonight it has just kicked in how faw away from home I actually am.

x

Bunk 29

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 13:12:51 GMT

I called my mum yesterday and spoke for about 45 minutes straight about everything that has been happening. I do not think I took a breath because I had so much to tell her. I was super gutted that Soph was out, so I have yet to talk to her but my Mum informed me that she checks this about 10308749873 times a day, which I think is pretty sweet.

This week has been pretty hectic since the kids arrive on Saturday. We all got put into our groups of who we will be working with all summer. I was so happy to find out that I am going to be looking after four 6/7 year old boys and just do every activity they do! I challenged myself to climb the new climbing wall the other day. It was amazing being at the top and looking down at all the guys who thought I would never do it.

Everynight that it has been nice and not rainy, I have been out looking at the stars. I know it sounds so silly and sad but honestly it is so cool and we just sit for hours talking and looking for shooting stars and relaxing after a long long day. The rain here is ''notebook'' rain. Brandon and I played basketball in it the other day which I thought was fun because its so hot but the rain was so crazy.

I am soon going to be posting some pictures up, so you all can see me and my delightful face that is now covered in freckles. In every picture I will no doubt be wearing a grey hoody that I have fell in love with which I bought for $8 the other day at the mall.

I told my Mum on the phone that I wish she was here for just one day to see how amazing Brant Lake is. Eventhough I do not have my favourite people out here, I am having such an amazing time and trying new things and just learning so much. I am already so so glad I decided to do this last November. Best decision I have made, and everyone knows I am so bad at decision making!

I miss all my lovely Scottish favourites but I am doing okay. Happy 19th to Karina, I am sorry I could not make it to your Princess Dinner Party.

Sour Skittles Soph???

love.x

Lifeguarding & Snack Packs

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 21:19:22 GMT

So, been here a few days now and I honestly love every minute of this. Eventhough I am surviving without makeup, a hair dryer, irn bru and certain people, I can't think of the last time I had this much fun. I am right now in the process of my lifeguarding course ( Mumma will be proud that I have finally done that) it is the most funniest but hardest thing I have done. Being in a lake while its raining is a nightmare but Laura and I could not stop laughing all the way through it and some of the American guys just laughed as we screamed about how our 'wee legs were blue'. Apparently saying the word 'wee', is hilarious! Last night we had a sort of cousellor party which was amazing and after that Diane, Johnny, Joe Love ( what a name! ), Scotty, Rhianne and myself all followed Joe at 1am to this 'secret' place where we lay and watched the stars. I have never done that before so I thought it was pretty cool.

Since being here I have had thee weirest dreams ever. Last night I was being chased about my old school by someone who looked liked Alistair, but it wasnt him if you know what I mean. I found that amusing! Being woken up by a bell every morning isnt the most pleasent but the fact you dont have to make yourself presentable is my favourite thing in the world. Everyone knows that I hate getting ready and would spend every second of the day if I could in my pyjamas.

Food here is pretty good. I have never ate so much salad in all my life. I LOVE IT! This American guy nearly choked when I never knew what a snack pack was...its like a chocolate yogurt but thicker...quite enjoyable. He told me at uni he survives on them alone.

Met so many nice and amazing people. Eating good food. Swimming everyday and just loving this so much. Still not blonde yet though...I'll wait and see.x

Brant Lake & Me

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 21:23:28 GMT

So...I left the lovely Scotland for NY and I actually cannot believe I am here. Leaving home was harder than I expected. My last weekend was filled with friends and family and I couldnt have asked for a better way to say goodbye. My leaving party was amazing and I thank everyone for coming and I hope you all has a good time. I did get emotional and so did a few other people including Cara, LM, Pam and my lovely mother but I was able to hold it together throughout the night...well sort of! Sunday was an emotional day. Mum cried alot and so did I but overall it was an amazing day filled with the best people except my dear brothers who were not.

As people already know I am not a fan of planes and the whole idea of planes and airports scare me so I was really shocked at myself when I survived the 10 and a half hour flight which was supposed to only last 7. We had to land in Washington for an hour because of bad storms which the pilot decided to tell us about which freaked me out completely but I was fine! Sitting next to Diane and Mel, who are both from Scotland, was a comfort since they both hated flying aswell. When the plane took off it dipped back down abit and we all screamed and Diane screamed 'fuck', which I enjoyed greatly as she had been fairly quiet since I had met her in Glasgow.

Brant Lake Camp is like something from a movie. It is actually so amazing and already I am having such a good time. Last night I played ultimate frisbee which made me laugh so much. Being in a team with 7 American guys was so funny. I ended up not concentrating on the game and just listening to the comment they made. I wish I could have written them down as they were classic.

Took a trip to Walmart today to purchse a duvet cover and some other things that I needed. I couldnt believe how cold it was last night, I woke up shivering eventhough I had joggys on, a hoody and 3 blankets!! So, today I bought a Spiderman duvet. All the other girls got Tinkerbell or The Little Mermaid ones but I thought Spiderman was pretty cool...God, I am such a loser! Also I have bought blonde hair dye. Its sitting in my room and I am so tempted to do it. Ive always wanted to be blonde and I thought this would be the best chance since I dont think my mum would be too pleased, however I can always dye it back if I dont like it?

I got all my Uni exam results back! Past them all! Thank the lord! 2nd year here I come!!! I am so so so so so happy I passed my exams. That has settled me so much more. Today I also purchsed an American phone so I can call home for quite cheap so I will bephoning Mum to check up on things back in my lovely home.

So after this essay of an entry. So far, So good. Everyone is amazing and I am happy...x